Young rider Ashley Bizelli is taking the big plunge into horse ownership!
Oh My! I’m Buying a Horse
Well, the time has come. I’m doing it. Taking the plunge from lesson taker/leaser to horse owner. Did I mention I am just turning eighteen?? Yikes! Most eighteen year olds who have a horse say they own a horse, but really, their parents own a horse.
I am going horse shopping with my trainer, my checkbook in hand, looking into the near future and seeing all my money going towards the horse I have wanted since I was three. Gulp. But why am I so scared? For the first time, I’m very fortunate to be in a position where I can afford to buy a decent horse and actively compete, train, clinic, and bond with him. But I am TERRIFIED.
I know how to take care of horses and could handle an emergency but when I think of having my own horse, I feel overwhelmed. Maybe the fact that I am essentially on my own is a big factor. But why can’t the joy of getting what I’ve wanted my whole life compensate for the unwanted feelings?
With my father’s passing came my ability to do this. He was the one who supported my dreams. He knew I could ride and helped me as much as possible. I have always known equestrian sports were made for me, but I have always had someone tell me “no”. From the now estranged mother who thought what I wanted to do was cruel, to the family now who thinks it is a complete waste of money, why can I not get someone close to me to say, “Hey if it works out, good for you. If not, you still have a bright future.”?
I’m trying really hard to just forget my feelings and go forward. I can do this. And I WILL. I have decided of all the things I can “blow” part of my inheritance on, I will not regret or be ashamed of it being on attempting my dream. Watching Rolex and Badminton sparked a fire of desire to get out there and achieve my goals. Now is the time for the leap of faith.
I will blog again to let you know where I’m at. (Telling myself that I have an audience demanding to get the update that I have purchased a horse fuels me to not look back.) Maybe updates with some try-out videos and cool horse shopping adventures in Ocala, trip back home to Georgia, and trying to get my jumping saddle through airport security as carry on luggage in time to make it back to my ‘second’ home in Missouri to welcome the new pony home!!!
I’m so excited (minus the nerves)!! It’s going to be a frightening adventure, but I know I have gone through worse and I can do this!
Wish me luck!